The Story Isn't Over Yet

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It's been a while since i said i quit, i have forgot you, really.... I know i will be okay, living my life, being happy around my friends, busy with all my tasks. It seems okay, until i realized that everything in my life is still about you. Maybe it's complicated that you don't want we're together but still interrupting me and appear in front me meanwhile i strongly denying you and moving forward. I totally understand what you're thinking about me but unfortunately you don't understand.

It's hard for me when you have trusted and loved someone that much, thought that they 100% understand and get your back, put a faith that they were the reason about what i had been praying, but then they left you. It's pity and embracing looking this weak, but i am not comfortable to only looks happy around my friends while i am even not.

I'm always trying to resist every single memories that suddenly appear, especially when i'm alone. I have a hundred questions on my head and end up wondering "is he thinking about me either?"

Kinda sucks was labelled a jerk, i don't want it too, they don't actually understand my heart, they don't eventually get it how my feeling works, they will get confused if you're trying to understand. Mine, works above the logic, because my heart needs something to lay down but it can't be touched easily. I wanna curse my heart too bruh, it fucking killing my dignity. 

By the way, i gonna catch up next week. I don't know what i suppose to do, i want make it all better, we're better. At least maybe i get the clue, get it or forget it. I don't actually in to it anymore, i can stand like this, but i don't know why am i still wanna doing this, i'm confused. I hope that my heart know the answer.

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